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i am hannah. almost 20 years old. 10th december 1989. quote: never really the end, it's the beginning. i love: God, guobin!, fat cheeks, food, family, soft bed sheets, cuddling, shopping in thailand, banana muffins, scones with jam and ice cream, waffles with butter and honey, high heels that are comfy, feeling the wind when the car is moving, walking in the rain, the mentalist, hmm yes i love kissing woohoo for me, little surprises, a good book on a windy day, doodling in my notebook, lovely pretty notebooks, handwritten notes...

Saturday, May 7, 2011

At night, I study in my parents room.

A single reading lamp. Books and papers all over the desk. A mug for whatever miracle concoction I've made for the night. Dad's extremely loud snoring. Mum's muted television shows making colors on the walls of the room. Whatever music that suits the mood for tonight: Ellie Goulding today.

I'm having this uncomfortable feeling deep in my chest.

I wonder whether its indigestion, though I think indigestion usually feels different. Went out with Desmond today. It's our almost routine weekly dinner meet ups. Saying we ate too much is an understatement.

I like hanging out with des. Although domesticated is the last word that should describe him, when we hang out, have dinner, share desserts, go to supermarkets, it feels very domestic. haha. It's a feeling of companionship that I've missed.

Ahh this uncomfortable feeling.

Missing old friends and companions. Of late night secrets sharing. Bonding over every little thing gossip worthy. Spending hours on the phone.

I've retracted from society.

Buried under studying.

Engrossed over books.

More interested in written words than interacting with real people.

Not feeling too happy with myself at the moment.

Time for some resolutions.

hmm.

And time to get back to revision.

Sleep well everyone.

1:18 AM